The promised update on the loss of Helen Mary Gee
We were waiting for a good forecast to sail the 120 odd miles from BVI to St Kitts. We cleared out of Customs and Immigration at Sopers Hole on Wednesday 1st April, with a forecast of NE 14 to 18 knots. That translates to anything up to 25 miles per hour winds and the wind blowing anywhere but from the northeast. To get the best angle to the wind for our night sail we went to the Northern most part of BVI at Virgin Gorda and picked up a buoy in Gorda Sound so that we could get ourselves and the boat ready for the night sail. It had been a lovely sail and I kept hold of the helm for most of it.

Helen at the helm
We left at 6 pm with enough day light to round Richard Branson’s Neckar Island and its reefs and to lay our course for St Kitts. The wind set in at 20 knots true and we reefed down suitably to set us up for the night’s cruise. The moon came up lighting the seas. Helen prefers a night sail with a bit of moonlight. It seems to make it somewhat friendlier. We were eating up the miles at 8 knots over the water. The wind was gusting to 23 knots and blew occasionally from NE in the gusts. To make life interesting the wind would creep round to blow from south of east with a lumpy northwesterly swell. The holes we met in the ocean were knocking us back to 6 knots over the ground and this scenario continued throughout the night.
At around 2.20 with Helen on the helm, the boat hit something hard and veered to starboard. Helen hit the wheel, bending it. I was sleeping in the cockpit and I was unceremoniously dumped on the floor hitting my chin hard as I went. The boat came to a temporary halt. Going below I checked that all was well and could not see anything wrong. At around 3.30 the wind instruments were playing up and I, suffering with nausea resulting from the hard knock I had taken to my face, cursed and went below to see what was causing the problem. Reaching the bottom of the companionway steps, my foot splashed into water. Seawater was coming in from somewhere and had covered the keel stepped mast electrics.
I went into the forward cabin and I could see water coming out of the base of the forward double berth. Not able to strip out the berth I stuffed cushions in to the area in an attempt to slow water ingress. I had no idea the nature or extent of the damage as whatever had happened was hidden by the black tank installation. The nearest land lay ahead and on a night where we had cruise liners, fishing boats and yachts in all directions, not one light could be seen. The radio was out because of the water in the cabling and so we were on our own until we could see another ship or get nearer to Saba to be able to raise someone on the hand held.
Because of our ocean travelling the sole boards on HMG were screwed down. There were however a couple of small inspection hatches. You would think that water when entering a boat gently fills it. That is not so. The water inside the boat mirrors the ocean wave pattern and I had the frightening sight of water squirting out of the holes where the inspection hatches had been. Had the floors not been retained, in the state I was in, I doubt if I could have moved as easily around the boat, if at all.
I backed up the two electric pumps with the hand bilge pump, in between bouts of seasickness. Helen continued to helm. The water was now up to the top of the batteries. The chance of making landfall to get HMG lifted was now very slim and we had to come to terms with that fact and prepare to abandon ship.
Helen went below to put a few things into a bag and then to get the emergency kit together and get our grab bag. Whenever we make a long passage we always have our grab bag together to make sure that we have our passports, credit cards, money etc in the event of accidents. We learned the sense of this some years before when friends of ours lost their boat off the coast of Tobago. We saw the difficulties they faced when they were shipwrecked with absolutely nothing for survival either at sea or when they fortunately reached land.
Between 5.30 and 6.00 a.m. I launched the life raft from its bracket on the stern. Immediately it went off down wind and tide, firing itself automatically. Helen had only full use of one arm and in waterproofs (it had rained during the night and it was quite cold) she would not have been able to swim to the life raft unaided. Any mistakes and we could miss the raft altogether.
We had stored the dinghy on the foredeck with the outboard in situ. The dinghy is lifted with a central harness hoist from a spare halyard. I decided to launch the dinghy and as the bow was now only a foot or so out of the water it took no time at all to do this.
I got into the dinghy and Helen passed me the 2 flare packs, the small bag with water, biscuits and a change of clothes for each of us and the waterproof grab bag, the chart, handheld radio and GPS and lastly the EPIRB (Emergency Position Indicating Radio Beacon) which I switched on. Helen with the good sense that you women have, had refused point blank to abandon the boat without her deck sandals explaining quite forcibly “I am not walking around the shops to buy clothes in sailing boots and shorts” I, fearing for her safety whilst trying to find these, put my “boot” down. Helen explained that they were underneath the spray hood so I let her get them before we left HMG. Helen having got hers, called out to me in that way that only you women can “would you like yours?” Tongue firmly in cheek I said yes please, seeing the sense of the scenario and also not wanting to look a plank.
I held onto HMG whilst Helen climbed down and we then dropped back to the stern grabbing onto the line to the life raft. We floated to it. Clipping on to the raft we cut the line to the boat. It seemed that the boat was sailing away although water logged. In fact we were drifting away from it in the direction of Venezuela, hundreds of miles away.
I let off a flare and called a Mayday on the hand held VHF. Saba was disappearing in the wrong direction. I decided to start the outboard engine and realised that the kill cord was still in the chart table. So using bits of rope I bodged up a kill cord and started the engine, towing the life raft back towards the boat which was now about a quarter of a mile or so away. The 5 hp outboard engine was not man enough in the seas to tow the raft so we let it go. That was a hard decision to make, as it seemed we were losing one of our chances of survival, but there really was no choice. We then engined towards Saba.
We recovered our lost ground and got back along side HMG. She was by then underwater up to her mast and the waves were washing over her up to the spray hood. We had to stay with her in her fight to survive, she had been our home for the past two years and to leave her would have seemed disloyal. Once the water passed the spray hood it made its way down the main hatch. Slowly the mast rocked forward dipping over further and further. The stern rose higher out of the water and the 22-meter mast with main sail still set disappeared. She stayed there like a duck feeding with her stern in the air and her rudder out of the water. She hung on like this until the air trapped in the aft cabin was forced out and then she started her final voyage. She held for a few more minutes just under the surface, her wind generator bent like a giant sunflower looking at the sea surface with the blades slowly turning before finally vanishing beneath the blue water of the Caribbean Sea. Cushions and a fender or two were all that was left to mark her journey to the bottom some 1300 to 1400 meters below.
Re-gaining courage we headed towards Saba. I let off another flare and put out another Mayday. A few minutes later I repeated the Mayday. The French Coastguard CROSAG picked it up. I gave our position as 20 miles NW of Saba. They asked what our problem was and I had to explain over and over that our boat had sunk and we were in a dinghy. They wanted a better fix, which I was then able to give as the hand-held GPS had now found our position. It turned out that another yacht, Dreamcatcher of Jersey had also heard our Mayday and they were able to liaise with CROSAG to relay our messages. Dreamcatcher was only 8 miles away and he confirmed that he was changing course to head for us. He gave us his course and having worked out the reciprocal I headed the dinghy towards him. Helen watched the horizon and at last spotted his white sails. She let off another flare which went off to the left, totally in the wrong direction at which time an unprintable word formed in my mind. Then, as if planned and Helen insists that it was, the wind got hold of the parachute and drifted it into a direct line between Dreamcatcher and us making it easy for him to spot us. We were after all a very small target being so low in the water in a very small boat in the still very lumpy sea.
The dinghy had taken on a fair amount of water and Helen’s memory of this is the water soaking her arms and annoying her. Thankfully she had her back to the seas and was too cramped to turn around. If she had she would probably have been wet somewhere else!!!!!!!!!!!!! We met Dreamcatcher with great relief and eventually boarded her. I then sat down with Helen with a cup of tea and we cried.
Roger and Lucyna, our rescuers from Dreamcatcher of Jersey made us very welcome. When you visit someone else’s boat you wait for an invite to leave the cockpit or go down below. To have all of our soaking wet gear taken from us including my sea boots (Lucyna is a brave girl) is uncomfortable as someone is throwing their home open to you and it is not an easy thing to accept. The last thing you want is to make a mess. We are so indebted to them for the kindness and compassion that they showed to us.
They were heading for Saba, St Kitts and then Antigua. At that point all Helen and I wanted to do was plant our feet on terra ferma. On our way to Saba the rescue helicopter turned up and hovered overhead talking to Roger on the radio and they did not leave until we waved to them to show that we were OK. Then the most enormous coastguard vessel turned up circling around the area where HMG went down. The helicopter crew asked where the life raft was and we explained via Roger that it was drifting in the direction of St Croix/ Venezuela. They headed off in that direction but we do not know if they found it.
We dropped the hook at Saba. It took some hours, and I realised how daunting the task of getting to Saba would have been in the dinghy. I would have undoubtedly run out of petrol and my arms would have dropped off from the rowing that would have ensued. Roger spoke to Crosag and explained to them that we were staying on the yellow flag at anchor and leaving for St Kitts the next day. The abiding memory for Helen at this time is looking out from the anchorage to the horizon where HMG sank knowing that our lovely boat was out there somewhere in a very cold and lonely place. It’s silly really to put such emotional thoughts on a piece of fibre glass, stainless steel and alloy but we had spent so much time working on the boat, installing all of her systems to make her a self sufficient home and with all of the memories that went with it. We felt somehow that we had deserted her. As all cruisers will know, these are not off the peg boats. They are something that we have sweated over and regardless of whatever size or whatever value, we love and hate them at the same time and are very attached to them.
We left Saba making for St Kitts. We had a really brisk sail thinking all the time of how HMG would have revelled in it. Roger having extra experienced hands to help out was able to power the boat up easier and as his boat was charging through the ocean he had a devilish look in his eye whilst Lucyna was suggesting that it be slowed down.
Arriving at the harbour in Basseterre St Kitts, Roger radioed to find out if there was a berth available for the night. He was politely told that they were full. As we had to go into the marina for water we asked the very pleasant young man who was dealing with us if the harbour master was around. This large as life Rasta man came over to us with his big smile and I thought oh dear someone is trying to sell us something. He was in fact the harbour master and a more delightful and helpful chap you could not wish to meet. We explained our situation and he said that he had heard the VHF talk on the previous day. He immediately found us a place in the marina and threw open all of the marina facilities free of charge with the exception of the berthing fees. We stayed 2 nights in St Kitts and a more charming island you could not wish to find.
We arrived in the main square in Basseterre. This being a cruise ship town you can buy any designer label that you like. Not what we wanted or wished to afford. We asked the most colourful, Rasta man bus driver who was parked by his bus in the street, “where do the locals buy clothes?” Looking at us as if we had grown an extra head each he asked why. Giving him a quick explanation of our need for clothing he immediately offered the four of us an island tour and drinks from his bus, for free, to welcome us to dry land. Helen and I were uncomfortable with his generosity and carefully declined his kind offer of the tour, but he insisted that we at least had a drink with him, which we did.
We went to the local travel agents just off the square to sort out the airline tickets. They were the most unhelpful and obstructive people that I have had the misfortune to meet. Even wanting to charge $30 each to phone Virgin on our behalf. They had the opportunity of selling the flight to England and the additional charge for amending Helen’s ticket. We left there almost in tears because of the extra stress. The attitude totally floored me. Even under normal circumstances businesses try to help customers. Thankfully this was a one off experience on St Kitts. We were now not in the mood for retail therapy so we had a lovely gentle lunch instead.
We then headed off to the port authority office where we had an appointment to explain our predicament. Finding the officer in charge his manner came over as extremely brusque. However he organised for and insisted that the coastguard attend his office to take full details. We did not understand what was going on but having arranged it, he explained that the Coastguard wanted us to get a cab and go to the other side of the island and wait at their offices for the interview.
The two coast guard guys, a senior and a junior officer, turned up.. The junior was delegated to fill in the form under supervision. He got to the bit about the boat’s value and then asked for a list of our possessions inside it. That stumped me. I explained to him imagine a three-bedroom house with everything that you would want in it. The problem was that he had only a 6” by 8” box to list everything. He settled on putting a value down.
Whilst we were talking to the coast guard the port captain who clearly decided that we were in his charge, arranged for a cab for us for the evening, at locals rate, and sent us to the other side of the island to a restaurant we would never have found. It would best be described as a cafeteria style eatery under a thatched roof. It was on the edge of the beach, had a number of set menus to mix and match if the fancy took and the food was absolutely delicious. The fish was from their own boats straight to the table and that was proved in the eating. I thought the mix and match meant that you would have half of each portion, but no, you got the full monty piled high on the plate. The place was buzzing with locals and I made a conscious memory to seek out the port captain and congratulate him on his choice.
I’m afraid folks that I cannot remember the name of the place but if you are in St Kitts go into the Port Authority’s Captains office and explain the scenario. Hopefully he will remember us and where he sent us. I am sure you will have a really good night.
Leaving St Kitts in the early hours, having thanked everyone. We made our way to Antigua. To get out of the very awkward berth that we were in I used the trusty dinghy to push Roger’s stern round and then clambered on board. Roger now wants a stern thruster. You’ve guessed it, the last sail in the Caribbean was under engine with wind on the nose. We got into Antigua, moored the boat up and chilled out.
The next day we went off to St John. A wonderful bustling Caribbean town. We have never felt anything but safe here although others have been less fortunate recorded by the newsworthy stories of several killings. (the Caribs put part of the blame for the rise in violent crime down to the US’s new policy of repatriating violent criminals back to their homeland. Even if they were only two weeks old when they arrived in the US)
We found the Levi store was having a big sale. With Caribbean women sizing being the norm, Helen found more choice in the teenage girl section. The deal on the clothes was so good that we spent a little over $900 dollars in the store. One of the two Cable and Wireless visa terminal computers was out of action and had been for several days and so it was cash only. Having a restriction on our card of $500 per day we had to use both of our cards at the cash point. No matter how hard we tried Helen’s card was rejected. This was cranking the stress levels up again. With what little credit remained on our phone we phoned England to have a chat with Nationwide. They had decided that you cannot be in St Kitts one day and Antigua the next so they blocked the card and were going to send a fresh card to our home address in Dorset.
Helen tearfully explaining the situation to the young man, he went away and sought authorisation to re-establish the card which they did with two minutes to spare on the phone. See they really can be helpful when they try. They were protecting our interests from the scammers but were prepared to change policy to help us. Thank you Nationwide.
Clutching our money we went back to the Levi Store. They were delighted with the sale but gently asked why we bought so much. Giving a quick run down of why, they gave us more discount. Thank you Levi Store Antigua.
Fancying a beer we went to the Irish Pub. It was upstairs and the only Irish bit was the name, but he did as advertised sell the coldest beers, made us really welcome and gave us local info as to where we could get some replacement CDs
One of our favourite CDs, Marley’s music went down with the boat and we wanted to get a replacement, after all where better than in the Caribbean. We were directed to Eddies shop in the rather questionable vendors mall, upstairs in a corner surrounded by the local unemployed or should it be unemployable. We asked for directions to the shop. Going in we noticed the starkness of the shelves and asking for Eddie we were told “not here”. Why? Explaining we wanted to replace our lost Marley music a beaming smile broke out and our man acknowledged being a cousin of Eddie.
He went to his CD collection on the Marley shelf and promptly started burning copies from his masters. So we had 3 CDs for £2.00 each. He left the shop for a few minutes to get us change but had his boys walk in to check that we were not stealing anything. I on the other hand was more worried about them cutting off my left hand to get my Rolex.
These lads I would guess very seldom come into contact with Europeans who have a wish to be friendly and after a few minutes ascertaining that we were not taking the mickey and actually enjoy their culture couldn’t be more friendly.
We met up with Roger whilst we were at the ATM, trying to sort out the cash machine. He was smiling, and happily announced to us that he and Lucyna were getting married and it was set for Wednesday 8th at 10 o’clock in the morning. This was really wonderful. They had arranged it before our scheduled departure time of 1 o’clock as they wanted us to be witnesses for them. The wedding was to be on the boat and a flurry of activity ensued to get this organised. The girls went shopping on Tuesday afternoon back to St John to buy the wedding dress. It was also mentioned to Roger that he would have to find a wedding ring, something that seemed to have slipped his mind.
Traipsing around the shops plans had to be changed as the only dress they could find was a beautiful white dress whereas Lucyna wanted to be married in blue. Lucyna was now pedicured, manicured and coiffured for the day. We let neighbouring boats know of the Wednesday morning plans and invited them to come along and cheer. One of the other boats donated a nice bottle of champagne which joined company with those which Roger and Lucyna had already ordered.
Wednesday morning arrived but no flowers (Bougainvillea promised by the hairdresser from his garden) whilst the boat was made ready my task was to chase down the flowers and collect the alcohol. I bumped into the hairdresser who had the flowers which I took back to the boat and then headed back for the champagne. I got back to the boat with minutes to spare. The Registrar was already on board waiting for the ceremony to start. With the flowers arranged and the alcohol safely in my hands we were ready to rock and roll. The ceremony went off without a hitch and it was lovely to see so many happy smiling faces.
We had been invited to a wedding breakfast with Roger and Lucyna at Melinis in Jolly Harbour Marina. This was a lovely gesture on their part. This rolled into lunch time and fast approached the time for us to leave for the airport and our flights back to England.
Helen’s flight to England had been organised by a Travel Agent in Tortola. Having had no success in St Kitts, I phoned and told them the situation with the loss of the boat and the need to get us both back to the UK. Her flight had been scheduled for 22nd April as she was returning for the surgery on her arm.. The Agent only has facility to take VISA with the customer present, over the counter but under the circumstances she said that we could send the money to her when we got back to England. That meant that she was trusting me with about $900 on the strength of a phone call. I could not accept that as hers was only a very small business and the time delay would be too great. I contacted Visa and they found a merchant in Tortolla who was prepared to process the payment through their terminal.. The Superyacht directory gave this travel agent a good write up and our experience of them as you can tell was exceptional. A bit different to the other bunch in St Kitts.
We said our goodbyes. To Roger and Lucyna. I think they were genuinely quite sad to see us go. They are coming to stay with us on one of their trips to England.
It is a month and a half since we lost the boat and believe it or not we are tentatively making plans for the next one. Sitting in our lovely warm house in Dorset I am starting to cut the grass with scissors. Our neighbour’s son commented to his mother “don’t you think Sutton Poyntz will be a bit dull for them?”
The thing about cruising is this. It doesn’t matter if you are frightened of water. It doesn’t matter if you are frightened of storms, you can, with common sense and by adjusting your plans, keep out of danger. For our part the joy of cruising is being together with your soul mate. Every trip we make whether it be two hours or a three week sail, is that we meet new people on the way.
Somehow working a boat and going with nature is just exciting yet frightening. Once you have enjoyed the cruising life and as long as you are fit enough I don’t think there is anything better. It really doesn’t matter how much you pay for the boat as long as it is seaworthy and comfortable and you are proud of her. We have met more Oyster owners waiting for bits for hybrid kit than people like Jeff, a lovely guy on Indian Summer, a single sailor, always going somewhere slowly.


Pictures of Helen Mary Gee on her last day in the British Virgin Islands
We have to say a big thank you to www.yachtshotsbvi.com The pictures were taken by them whilst we were cruising the BVI. The latest pictures were taken on 1st April, the day we left the BVI and the eve of our dreadful accident. When they heard of our loss they very kindly supplied a selection of the pictures that are on their website. If you are in the BVI and a young lady in an inflatable comes around taking pictures that will probably be yachtshotsbvi and the product is excellent. Many thanks to them.
Watch this space. Like the Phoenix we will rise from the ashes. Until then please keep us posted on what you are doing and where you are. We will meet again.
Paul and Helen
Helen Mary Gee















